My first post

Hello to all.  This is my first attempt at a blog. I am bipolar and have been for most of my life although I wan't diagnosed with it until 2004. We just recently moved and I found journals that I had been keeping since I was in my teens. I am now 53, and I still keep a journal. When I toke the time to read thru some of these, I found that I had wrote poems thru all my highs and lows, so this will be an attempt at publishing some of those. It is my hope that there are other people out there that might identify with what I write just as sure as I know there will be people who have no idea what I'm writing about. Where I'm at right now in my life is not a good spot. I am in the middle of a VERY bad manic ANGRY episode. I've been here since Oct.  I am out of meds. I cannot afford them. I take Symbyax and I have been out since Oct. I am hearing things again, so all is not well. I am staying at home trying to avoid ANY body for fear someone will set me off and I will be put away for good.  I am probably going into a drug trial in two weeks that requires a stay in the hospital. But maybe I'll get some much needed help. I will start posting poems, rants and raves later today. I'm sure they will not be in the order of my years, but i will give my best. thanks for reading, cc